Day at the water June 09, 2024

Yesterday was so beautiful.

The past couple weeks, I’ve been feeling a depressive slump in my subconscious. MUCH easier to manage than previous bouts of mental health challenges (and I am unbelievably grateful to have found that light I craved, the outside of the tunnel), but still jarring and demanding to sit in the forefront of my mind (I won’t let it!!!).

I am trying to remind myself that it is okay for me to sit in it. That I am no longer facing “the end of my world” and that I am in a place, now, where I can spread my wet wings. That there is lessened fear in the vulnerability. That I do not need to be prepared to take flight.

I have a very beautiful, lucky, and full life. That is such an intense privilege to wield.

Spending the day with my best friends, wading in the river, collecting shells from the floor, making not one but four cups of tea, suspending our bodies in the deep end of the pool (what a lovely thing to be submitted to a body of water), hugs where you rest your heads on each others shoulders; all the while, knowing that these are the people who helped me grow. Who’ve shared the experience of our universe expanding. Who have loved me each day I have known them, and who I have loved back.

It feels so safe to be wrapped in this, thank you thank you thank you. Today I will return to working, I have a few commissions that I’m chipping away at (and am really excited for the outcome!!), and an exciting project come late summer ;)

I hope everyone has had a lovely day, or has at least found contentment. And I hope the universe bends down to hug you, soon.